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One of the things you don't like to see in your daily status reports is a trend line that plummets off the bottom of the graph. Perhaps "plummet" doesn't adequately describe the way this line is aggressively boring its way to the unplumbed depths below the bottom of the chart.
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Fortunately the dive is due to a service outage on the database where we report the results, rather than an actual decline in our service level in this particular area. On the other hand, there is a downward trending happening that I don't like to see. Early October doldrums I suppose.
On the other hand, the graph is a pretty good representation of my energy levels these days. Yesterday's snow, and this morning's chilly temperatures and icy streets have got me off to an early start on winter depression. It's a good thing that I mowed the lawn and mulched the leaves on Monday. O.o
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Game notes:
I'm starting to get a little burnt out lately on WoW. It's not the game itself that is burning me out, but the aggressive, hardcore nature of the guild I'm in. When![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
atara and I joined this guild they were a fairly casual raiding guild, doing 2-3 serious raids a week. Currently they are up to 5 days a week of raiding, and they are demanding 50% minimum attendance to avoid DKP wipes and other penalties. That's a bit more hardcore than I really wanted, but on the other hand I've been running in the 90% attendance range, so I can't really complain too loudly about those requirements. Doing 10 raids a month isn't a serious hardship IMO.
What's burning me out is that the raids have stopped being fun; the raid leader and officers are taking things way too seriously. They keep tabs on the progress of every other raiding guild on the server - Horde or Alliance - and measure our performance and progress against them. When a raid is going well, it's all rainbows and buttercups, but when things turn a bit sour they start getting a little ugly. Last night was one of those times when things went a little sour.
"Goddamn it, what's wrong with you people?"
"I'm not going to waste my time bringing you in here if you're not going to bring your A game."
"Did you all take your stupid pills today?"
[etc]
We were working on Noth when our secondary main tank dropped from the raid and logged out. Apparently the raid leader had sent him a whisper, telling him to "STFU in Vent" because this guy was trying to keep things a bit lighter in there. As soon as he left, there was an immediate round of back-biting, and comments about "thin skins" and "PMS". The warrior who logged is one of the nicer guys in the guild, and a very capable player. He didn't deserve, well, any of this. I would not be surprised to see him take a break for awhile.
As for me, I'm getting closer and closer to transferring my character over to join a bunch of my ex-guildmates on another server. I sat in on one of their raids in Ventrilo last week, and it was really refreshing to hear people talking, and joking and even laughing in the middle of multiple wipes. They were having fun with their raid, as opposed to what I'm doing now -- which is more like boot camp than fun at the moment. There are only two things holding me back just now.
1) I know that it will be a long time before I see any of the same end-game content with the other guild as I am seeing with this current one.
2) A part of me feels that I owe something back to this guild. These guys have decked me out in pretty good gear, and I'm one of their primary priests. If I cut and run, it will be with no small amount of guilt. Officers aside, there are some genuinely decent folk in this guild.
Right now there is a tentative guilt/burnout balance happening, with guilt weighing slightly heavier at the moment, but every raid like the one last night stacks more weights on the other pile. I was planning to wait for Burning Crusade to transfer, but I may jump early at this rate.
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Fortunately the dive is due to a service outage on the database where we report the results, rather than an actual decline in our service level in this particular area. On the other hand, there is a downward trending happening that I don't like to see. Early October doldrums I suppose.
On the other hand, the graph is a pretty good representation of my energy levels these days. Yesterday's snow, and this morning's chilly temperatures and icy streets have got me off to an early start on winter depression. It's a good thing that I mowed the lawn and mulched the leaves on Monday. O.o
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Game notes:
I'm starting to get a little burnt out lately on WoW. It's not the game itself that is burning me out, but the aggressive, hardcore nature of the guild I'm in. When
atara and I joined this guild they were a fairly casual raiding guild, doing 2-3 serious raids a week. Currently they are up to 5 days a week of raiding, and they are demanding 50% minimum attendance to avoid DKP wipes and other penalties. That's a bit more hardcore than I really wanted, but on the other hand I've been running in the 90% attendance range, so I can't really complain too loudly about those requirements. Doing 10 raids a month isn't a serious hardship IMO.What's burning me out is that the raids have stopped being fun; the raid leader and officers are taking things way too seriously. They keep tabs on the progress of every other raiding guild on the server - Horde or Alliance - and measure our performance and progress against them. When a raid is going well, it's all rainbows and buttercups, but when things turn a bit sour they start getting a little ugly. Last night was one of those times when things went a little sour.
"Goddamn it, what's wrong with you people?"
"I'm not going to waste my time bringing you in here if you're not going to bring your A game."
"Did you all take your stupid pills today?"
[etc]
We were working on Noth when our secondary main tank dropped from the raid and logged out. Apparently the raid leader had sent him a whisper, telling him to "STFU in Vent" because this guy was trying to keep things a bit lighter in there. As soon as he left, there was an immediate round of back-biting, and comments about "thin skins" and "PMS". The warrior who logged is one of the nicer guys in the guild, and a very capable player. He didn't deserve, well, any of this. I would not be surprised to see him take a break for awhile.
As for me, I'm getting closer and closer to transferring my character over to join a bunch of my ex-guildmates on another server. I sat in on one of their raids in Ventrilo last week, and it was really refreshing to hear people talking, and joking and even laughing in the middle of multiple wipes. They were having fun with their raid, as opposed to what I'm doing now -- which is more like boot camp than fun at the moment. There are only two things holding me back just now.
1) I know that it will be a long time before I see any of the same end-game content with the other guild as I am seeing with this current one.
2) A part of me feels that I owe something back to this guild. These guys have decked me out in pretty good gear, and I'm one of their primary priests. If I cut and run, it will be with no small amount of guilt. Officers aside, there are some genuinely decent folk in this guild.
Right now there is a tentative guilt/burnout balance happening, with guilt weighing slightly heavier at the moment, but every raid like the one last night stacks more weights on the other pile. I was planning to wait for Burning Crusade to transfer, but I may jump early at this rate.
